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As usual, I took leave to have some solitude and reflection as I turned a year older. This time, it was clear to me that at this period in my life, I was having too little affections for God. It’s plain to see: I felt no strong inclination towards spending more time with God apart from my daily Quiet Time, and I would rather spend time watching TV and surfing the net. By the grace of God, this disturbed me.

I shared with my Foundation group on my lack of desire, and a brother suggested that I fast from these earthly distractions. To tell the truth, the suggestion was unappealing to me as it appeared rigid and seemed to be just a prohibition that would not bring me desire for God’s things. Yet, as I considered the two questions in my last blog post, what stirs my affection for Jesus Christ and what robs me of these affections, I know that the answers to the latter question were TV and the Internet. I just have to control my time spent on these media.

I mentioned in the previous post that I don’t know what stirs my affection for Christ. I realised today that I love to read the meditations of godly Christians who think of God’s thoughts after Him. These include John Piper, AW Tozer, Philip Yancey, etc. I need to be inspired to think great thoughts of God. So instead of watching TV and surfing mindless sites, I need to immerse myself with meditations on His word and works. And one of the writings by John Piper inspired the prayer for myself, which is to grow in desire and delight for God. Both are gifts from God, and I know that I have to continually pray for God to incline my heart to HIm and to have great joy in Him.

Thank you, Abba, for your revelation to me.